What would you do if you were me?

Nothing worth pursuing comes easy. Work and study up on old math concepts. Buy books off amazon, or contact an old teacher to figure things out. To me it seems lIke you're coming up with excuses because your afraid of failure. Suck it up and power through this, you can do it. My mom's an ot she loves her job and is able to solely support a house of two teenagers with expensive tastes.